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Dear Blog,
Im sorry Ive neglected you. Please forgive me..

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Alright so here is whats up...
As of Friday Shel will be on Adoption Probation. Which (for us) means the wait for our court date to sign the adoption papers. YAY! Most of the time AP is like 6 months long, but because we have already had our boy for 3 years and 7 months they are going to waive it. (duh!). So he gets out of JK early on Friday. and we get to do his discharge medical with CAS and then a whole whack of paper work signing. The adoption worker has told me that the next court date is Feb 17th.. 4 months away. Seems like a day after the last 3 years.

Now miss M is another story.... we have no idea what the plan is with her... I think my heart would be crushed if we have to give her back. Her bmom wants us to adopt, her maternal grandma supports us as well.. its just the birthfather who doesn't. I wish I could talk freely with him about it, but I can't. I guess we wait and see until the 28th.. then we will finally know if there is any plan for this little girl.

Some things that have happened lately have made me really lonely.... I wish I had friends who have been down this road before.. but Im just not sure I am in a place where I want to open up to people.
And I feel awful for my wonderful husband. He has a great degree, but not chance to use it right now... and his family is being terrible.. which is all my fault.

Oy.
I will try to write more late.
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